I'll be fine

You ain't got to tell me we can still be friends, i will be fine. Its better if don't speak at all......

What a good song, I can't lie to myself because I felt exactly like that for a while. Now all I am is confused for your past statements, are they irrelevant now? Can I peruse you or do you only see me as a good friend now and forever. What ever feeling is encircling me right now is like a bunch of butterflies are trying to trying to escape me, the tantalizing sensation is not new to me yet I just cannot adapt to it. Another question has also started appearing inside my head, do I want you because I am attracted to you? or because I only want a girlfriend? Is it the love that I want or is it the achievement. Truthfully, I do not have a sure answer for myself and because of that I feel like a horrible person.

The more I get to know you, the more I am attracted. You may not be the pinnacle of womanly beauty but in my eyes you are very beautiful. I probably made it painfully clear by jokingly calling you beautiful multiple times. I have my doubts because you seem too uncontrollable for me, in the perspective of a boy who prefers not to escape his familiar space. I know that its good to go out and explore all aspects of fun while I am young. I do remember the important things you tell me though, and I thoughtfully think about them before giving you an answer.