I have decided to give up, I know it hurts to say this but I cannot continue on. Each time we talk, it is as if you want me to leave, you want me to vanish. My emotions are torn, I still just cannot believe what I am doing, will I regret this? Part of me sides with the string of hope still left between us, I cannot see it anymore because the string is so fine, so thin, so nonexistent. The other side is full of hatred and anger for pulling me along, for misleading me and wasting my time. I am sure that before this post the latter part of my emotions was succumbed totally by the side with hope and excitement. Now, it is an even match up with both sides fighting for all they have got. I guess maybe I should just leave it at this because the pain it brings me to write this, to anyone reading, is utterly unbearable, like a deadly fire consuming a mighty forest. There are others out there that will probably prove to be a better compliment to me and with this, I can say that I have gotten over it. Maybe in the future, some unknown time away we can have a chance but for now this is probably the end.

best wishes to you =]